A wanderer's Tale...!

after like ages today i went for a morning walk (yes about time i know =P)... i came back early though since i didn't have any music with me and i forgot to take my camera so it was boring...not to mention no good looking passer by ;)... why i am writing this is because today i wanted to share this cute experience...

...on my way back i saw this beautiful little stray puppy. about a year old not more...she was a pointer from one side.... she had these big brown eyes and an adorable face...patched brown and white she was a pretty sight :)...she didn't look at me first, although i was staring at her :D, but then just casually glanced my way and i smiled at her...lol she was like she looked away and then as if thought of something and then looked back at me and stared as if wondering *whats wrong with this human*...
...i stood there for a while and i just loved her questioning eyes.. and then she suddenly jumped in such an adorable playful manner ...made me smile again...she didn't approach me because she was probably scared .. i didn't encourage her, i was a little apprehensive too...
...i started to walk back then and she followed me till a little distance but then probably reality dawned on her that i am just another passer by who wont feed her or take her home to pamper and love her so she turned back and went to her marked spot...
...Gods' creations ... :) ...i am still smiling at those eyes ...

Dont know...!

Sometimes it scares me how blessed i am..i am scared of my Lords wrath..i am scared of how i dream and i wish and i am granted...i cant thank Him enough...i really cant...and not even the best Muslim not even close to it...yet he bestows me with such happiness...i am scared to even think otherwise...Life...Life as it comes...mayji says your life are chapters...close the one you've read and don't open it again if its not interesting or if it hurts, don't go back...there is a book ahead to read...don't jump..don't plan because what will happen you can never tell...
...my life is going to take a turn from today onwards inshAllah and i don't know what lies ahead...this very morning i asked mayji what will become of me...will i be able to carry on and she consoled me with the above words...and i am humbled by my Lords blessings...they who don't believe that a God exists and that He is not the only one who knows your heart and intentions...how wrong r u my friends...

Life...Fate...Time...!

Life.. Time...Fate..... i believe in all three...a rather strong belief... why..its hard to explain since i am bad at explaining things :)....
....i am always told i don't open up...i am often told i don't share my problems...i have an answer for that ...around me are people and examples that i can relate to my own life... incidents that occur that leave a mark on my mind... i treasure these marks for they help me lead a life i feel is better for me... i don't share my problems why because around me are people with problems of such gravity that i feel i am fooling my self... life has different meanings for everyone...for me its a constant learning phase... i love life...every second , every moment ...brings forth a new feeling, a new experience a new memory.. for some life is hard ..its constant pain..constant craving...constant loss... they don't find the reason for there existence ...they feel trapped in their own body...no way out... and above all the tears...they don't stop do they.... its those people that i have around me who make me feel my troubles are not troubles... and that my problems are not problems ...they make me realize that my life is soo much better ...that i am truly blessed...and so i find the strength to keep my pain inside and heal it from within...it works most of the time...at others i have my guardian angels :)... sometimes tears are such a huge help... i remember i wished once that i would stop crying forever (i don't know when)...i thought not crying is a sign of bravery...i realize now that i was wrong...i miss tears...i have been for sometime now...i don't remember since when (lack of water in my body i guess ;))...its ok to cry at times it helps...but the tears in the eyes of someone you love dearly...that feeling...thats called pain...i wish i could take away the tears from those who i hold close to my heart...i wish...
...but its fate i guess..you are tested for your faith and your patience...our Lord has mysterious ways dosent he :)...Love him for that...but it hurts to see some people so hurting..humans we are after all... fate brings upon them strange situations... surrounding them with questions that are complex... the answers though there but hidden...and He promised that no one would suffer more then he can withstand... but still weaklings as we are...we don't want to wait ..we feel we cant survive ..we don't have enough time.... time... my favorite excuse for everything... time ...it does heel...it does ...u only have to let it..life...fate...time...i believe in them...i do