So i have decided... i have made my decision... my heart won over my brain (loser)... i have chosen to live the happy days, till they last... i am not really sorry on my decision...yes i needed the money , yes i need to run away from a storm that i feel is coming way too quickly... but I've made my decision and its too late to revert back... i'd like to think it that way...
... now that i am through, now that i have chosen the path, a strange feeling is lurking somewhere at the back... i hate intuitions, i just don't like the feelings i get of something bad that might occur... why i don't get the feeling of something good happening is beyond me...
...Now i have nothing to look forward to... i have given the go to my mum to seal my fate to whom ever she wishes and when ever she wants... that is what she wanted and that is what she wanted me to say...so i said it...i want to run away though... i want to live my life again, want to feel the independence, enjoy the time that will always be mine...forever... i want to re-live the time again... that time i spent in pindi all by myself... the 2 years i lived without my family... its not that i am running away from my duties... i just want to feel that free again... is this too much to ask...
...i feel happy...for now yes...i think i have made the right decision, Allhumdullillah.. kal kis nae dekhe hae yaar... lets enjoy while today lasts ...shall we...!
2 comments:
Reading the very blog, I am a little lost for words. Not because I have understood the contents to be something like gloomy or sad of a kind but may be that I am grossly overwhelmed with the power of expression that has jolted me for a while.
Uncertain, we are all. That’s what make us Human. But we must try to face the light so that shadows should fall behind us, and trust they do …
I have read a wish somewhere that was conveyed by a youth to a senior. It appeared at first to be a very simple one. I wanted to dedicate that very wish in here with the only difference that it would be from a senior this time. Couldn’t remember the exact phrase of it but it goes something like
I never know how you fate would be …
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I only know it would be great …
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GOD BLESS! May you have a great Future! while you enjoy the present times.
Good to see ya around Captain! Keep Talkin'
'I do not know beneath what sky nor on what seas shall be thy fate; I only know it shall be high, I only know it shall be great' ...
your comments are always so comforting, thank you...
'Uncertain, we are all. That’s what make us Human. '... i still wish you'd write blog too, you have such a wonderful expression... :)
and the wish yes...it is beautiful and thank you for reminding me these words...
its good to see You around, keep dropping by... thank you
shine on :)
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