Let me try...!

let me turn a leaf... let me just try....let me touch the forbidden ...but my feet deny....
reaching out for a difference... reaching deep within... reaching for a life...but its hard...
my heart deceives me...it steps onto forbidden territory... i am pulling it back ...trying ..

A simple minds tale....!

the urge to be so many yet i am no one... the wish to achieve too much when i stand empty handed... the complete belief in my Lord yet i feel frail... the thoughts of happiness when the wold around me is crashing... i stumble upon steps...then rise again and start over,...i touch the possibilities then step back ... i have started dreaming ...i don't want to... i am rushing towards the next step ..my memories are vanishing.... i want to leap high and beyond.... i reach out but catch only air....i feel secluded..yet surrounded by a huge crowd... out numbered and weak... i am pushed by pillars to carry on....my life is not boring...its a new image every minute...i live at one moment and wish to die in the other...am i insane or is it every minds tale ..... ?

Run Away...!

run away my friend run away to that far away land..where fairies will greet you and the paths will always be smooth...run away over that mountain..where the sun shines brighter.. where the rain is bitter sweet....run away...be a apart of the world that had no flaws...make a life that has no sorrows, no boundaries no complications...run away my friend run away...away into your dreams..dream of happiness and accomplishments and success...remember no one ..shred your memories, burn the papers...stop collecting stones, never look back...never...for the good has bad in the end...happiness is attached to sorrows and memories are painful...

...but remember...never again mention the word fighter..never call your self a survivor..never bother to define brave...don't stop hurting yourself ...take memories for granted ...discard any thoughts of healing while facing the pain ...run away my friend ...run away ... far far away!