Going down...!

i want to cry...i want tears to flow non stop....i want to cry...i have a heavy heart...i cant compose words to let out my pain...its strangling my throat...my brain feels dead...i am loosing the battle to reason... how hard it is to bear the thought of what lies ahead might not be waht we want...im loosing the little trust i had in the few people i know or knew...im drifting away... far deep within...i have had phases before but this time it seems like a long slow process that might last for longer if not forever... i have not lost faith...i still believe that everything that happens happens for a reason... and that my Lord knows whats better for me.... still a weakling as i am... i want to cry... but the tears reuse to fall... stubborn as i am...i want to cry