Life...Fate...Time...!

Life.. Time...Fate..... i believe in all three...a rather strong belief... why..its hard to explain since i am bad at explaining things :)....
....i am always told i don't open up...i am often told i don't share my problems...i have an answer for that ...around me are people and examples that i can relate to my own life... incidents that occur that leave a mark on my mind... i treasure these marks for they help me lead a life i feel is better for me... i don't share my problems why because around me are people with problems of such gravity that i feel i am fooling my self... life has different meanings for everyone...for me its a constant learning phase... i love life...every second , every moment ...brings forth a new feeling, a new experience a new memory.. for some life is hard ..its constant pain..constant craving...constant loss... they don't find the reason for there existence ...they feel trapped in their own body...no way out... and above all the tears...they don't stop do they.... its those people that i have around me who make me feel my troubles are not troubles... and that my problems are not problems ...they make me realize that my life is soo much better ...that i am truly blessed...and so i find the strength to keep my pain inside and heal it from within...it works most of the time...at others i have my guardian angels :)... sometimes tears are such a huge help... i remember i wished once that i would stop crying forever (i don't know when)...i thought not crying is a sign of bravery...i realize now that i was wrong...i miss tears...i have been for sometime now...i don't remember since when (lack of water in my body i guess ;))...its ok to cry at times it helps...but the tears in the eyes of someone you love dearly...that feeling...thats called pain...i wish i could take away the tears from those who i hold close to my heart...i wish...
...but its fate i guess..you are tested for your faith and your patience...our Lord has mysterious ways dosent he :)...Love him for that...but it hurts to see some people so hurting..humans we are after all... fate brings upon them strange situations... surrounding them with questions that are complex... the answers though there but hidden...and He promised that no one would suffer more then he can withstand... but still weaklings as we are...we don't want to wait ..we feel we cant survive ..we don't have enough time.... time... my favorite excuse for everything... time ...it does heel...it does ...u only have to let it..life...fate...time...i believe in them...i do